从小，我们就倾向于对自己生活中所有的限制，做出坚定的承诺。对我来说，比起真正地创造自己的生活，我更努力的想成为灰姑娘，为爱而结婚，并从此过上幸福快乐的生活。

结局中，从此过上幸福快乐的生活，其实是电影中，他们从未向我们展示真正的婚后生活。这对夫妻永远无需再做任何事情，因为他们有爱！

最令人沮丧的是，我甚至根本不知道自己在做什么。这是伴随我一生的秘密议程。“秘密的议程”是，我们挑选并用作生活指南的程序。这些是我们以此来匹配或拒绝生活中出现的每一个选择的一系列结论。

直到我嫁给我老公之前，我的生活一直在不断充实和创造中，然后我们搬进了我们一起的第一个家。在我创造了，也就是我挣够了钱，买了我们的第一套房子之后，这个“从此过上幸福快乐的生活”的结论，让我停止了那份创造，并沉浸在每天各种烹饪中。那感觉太奇怪了，慢慢地，我发现自己一直在沉浸在疲惫和悲伤里。我刚刚嫁给了一个很体贴的男人，并成为了我深爱的三个孩子的继母，但事情进展并不顺利。那是因为我没有在创造，我知道的那个可能性的未来！

幸运的是，我得到了Gary Douglas的忠告，他是Access Consciousness创始人，他建议我先看11遍灰姑娘的电影，几年后再看20遍，总共31遍。这是为了粉碎那个我一直携带的秘密的议程。

以如此高频的看这部电影，这是一种神奇的方式，很快就使你厌倦了这秘密议程。我对此感到极其厌烦，而后就放弃了。

你为自己设置了那些陷阱？

它们是什么？为了成为你自己，你怎样才能超越这一切而生活？

نحن نميل للاحتفاظ بالتزامات قوية لمحدوديتنا من صغرنا. بالنسبة لي، كنت ملتزمة أكثر لأكون سندريلا، اتزوج عن حب واعيش في سعادة للابد اكثر من ان اصنع حياتي.

في افلام النهايات السعيده نحن لانرى ماهو شكل الحياه بعد الزواج. الزوجان ليس عليهم خلق اي شئ اخر بعد حصولهم على الحب!

أكثر جزء محبط هو انني لم أكن اعي ما افعله. كانت اجنده سريه هي التي تدير حياتي. الاجندات السرية هي برامج نختارها ونستخدمها كدليل ارشادي في حياتنا. هي سلسله من الخلاصات التي نستخدمها لمطابقة او رفض كل اختيار يظهر في حياتنا.

اسمرت حيلتي بالنمو والصناعة الى ان تزوجت زوجي وانتقلنا لبيتنا الاول. بعد ان صنعت المال لشراء بيتنا الأول- وهي أحد الخلاصات لدي لحياه سعيدة ابديه- توقفت عن الخلق بمعدل هائل وبدأت اطبخ بمعدل هائل. كان شيء شديد الغرابة وبطيء ووجدت نفسي دائما متعبه وحزينة. كنت للتو تزوجت من رجل مهتم وطيب القلب، واصبحت ام لثلاثة اطفال أحبهم جدا ولكن كان هناك شيء مفقود. لقد توفقت عن صناعة المستقبل الذي اعلم بإمكانيته.

لحسن حظي كان لدي النصيحة الجيدة من جاري دوغلاس مؤسس اكسس كونشيسنيس، والذي نصحني بمشاهدة فيلم سندريلا في...

What traps have you set for yourself?

We tend to have really strong commitments to our limitations from a young age. For me, I was more dedicated to being Cinderella, to marrying for love, and living happily ever after, than I was to actually creating my life. 

The thing about happily ever after is that in the movies they never show you what life after marriage looks like. The couple never has to create anything again because they have love!

The most frustrating part is that I didn't even know what I was doing. It was a secret agenda that was running my life. Secret agendas are programs that we pick up and use as a guide through life. They are a series of conclusions that we use to match to, or reject every choice that shows up in our lives.

 My life kept building and being created up until the time I married my husband and we moved into our first home. After I had created the money to buy our first home, which was my conclusion happily ever after, I stopped creating at my...

A very happy time for me was when I lived on a golf course situated in an evergreen forest on a lake in Canada. I lived with my friend Matt, and other than us, there was no one around for miles. There is something wonderous and magnanimous about the spirits of evergreen trees.

They have a sense of dignity that is an role model for how we can be in the world. They grow to be so tall and they stay the same in winter and summer, without changing colours. And they are always willing to poke you if you cross them!

I grew up on a farm with evergreen trees that lined the yard, and I still have very callous feet from walking around my yard barefoot around as a kid. They parented me whether I knew it then or not.

The trees say, "We know the future. We know where we are going. We don't doubt, we don't wonder, we don't worry. We support, we commune, we grow as we gift, and there is no sense of wrongness or lack to be found anywhere."

Right now I am living in a...

One morning I was doing my make up and decided I should turn on Netflix. I like to listen to Access Calls or music as I'm getting ready in the morning, but I had just finished watching both Seasons of The Marvelous Mrs. Maiselon Amazon Prime, and I was looking for something else  inspiring.

About 2 years ago I asked that all tv shows and movies I watched be a massive contribution to my life. And, they are getting greater and greater. Wink Wink.

This particular morning I switched on Tidying Up with Marie Kondo on Netflix.

Within an hour my floor was covered with stuff, I pulled apart drawers, I pulled things out of the garage; I was on a mission.

A month later I had spent around 40 hours, and 35 big garbage bags getting our home clear.

And we weren't hoarders beforehand. My husband Anthony is the tidiest man in the world and neither of us had  accumulated ridiculous amounts of stuff. We had just moved into a newly built house 2 years...

There are worlds and powers we have available to us that we do our best to ignore in our every day lives. We are capable of realities far beyond this one while still living on planet earth. The doorway to these worlds, for me, has been the tools of Access Consciousness. Sometimes, using the tools seems more difficult than stopping a thousand boulders rolling down a hill. Sometimes using the tools is so easy that you can't believe they actually work. But they do, the tools always work. You just have to use them for the limitations that come up and the world becomes your playground.

What did you dream of as a child when you stirred in bed, falling asleep? What realities and magic danced in your head that were there and deep and real, but in the morning became an illusive dream again? Those were and still are the starting points of your reality. We don't want to know what is available to us, because if we fully claimed it, it would dwarf the morals, relationships and...

On Christmas last year, I was not feeling myself. I was sad and angry so I began to ask some questions. 

I started to ask some questions and realized it was entities I was aware of.

I perceived my paternal grandfather who I was very close with. He died at 88 years old, and had never revealed himself in my world since I'd been using the tools of Talk to the Entities, and I was wondering why he finally decided to show up.

He was the grandfather everyone would want to have. He would sit us on his knee and sing nursery rhymes to us, he filled his instant coffee with tons of cream and sugar and let me sip it when I was as little as 6, while he would proclaim, "This is the best coffee in Manitoba!" (which was my home province).

He and Grandma had two homes, one in Winnipeg and one 3 hours west out on the farm. He would roll his tobacco every day and he would tell us to play a trick on Grandma during the summers on the farm. My sister and I would steal one of Grandma's oven mitts and...